LUCK WAS HIGH IN THE ROTH FAMILY THE MOMENT JUDITH "JUDE" ROTH WAS BROUGHT INTO THE WORLD. AFTER MANY FAILED PREGNANCIES, ANGELA AND TYLER HAD BOTH VALUED THE MIRACLE THAT WAS GIFTED UPON THEM IN THE SHAPE OF THEIR ONLY DAUGHTER. LIFE HAD SEEMED TO BE ON A HIGH FOR THE FAMILY, JUST SETTLING INTO THEIR NEW HOME IN LOS ANGELES. THE SUBURBAN LIFE FAIRING WELL FOR THE FAMILY AS THEY RAISED THEIR DAUGHTER IN WHAT FELT LIKE BLISS. EXCEPT BLISS DIDN'T LAST AS LONG AS THE FAMILY WOULD HAVE HOPED FOR. HARD TIMES HIT UPON THEM, STRUGGLES WITH MONEY AND STABILITY. JUDE'S FATHER TURNING TO SUBSTANCE ABUSE TO EASE THE PAINS HE ENDURED. THE PRESSURES OF HIS OWN PAST RISING THROUGH THE THE CRACKS HE THOUGHT WERE SEALED FOR GOOD. TYLER'S STRUGGLES BECAME THE FAMILY'S STRUGGLES. ANGELA BECOMING THE BRUNT OF THE FORCE AS TYLER BECAME ABUSIVE AND HOSTILE. LEAVING THE FAMILY TO QUICKLY BREAK DOWN AND AND LOSE THAT CONNECTION THEY ONCE HAD.

IT WASN'T LONG AFTER THE ABUSE HAD STARTED THAT ANGELA KNEW SHE HAD TO TAKE JUDITH AND HERSELF TO SAFETY. DIVORCING FROM HER ABUSIVE HUSBAND AND MOVING OUTSIDE OF LOS ANGELES WITH CLOSE FAMILY UNTIL SHE WAS ABLE TO GET BACK ON HER FEET AGAIN. IN THIS TIME, JUDITH HAD FORMED AN EVEN STRONGER BOND WITH HER MOTHER. THE TWO TAKING VARIOUS CLASSES TOGETHER. FROM YOGA TO POTTERY. TAKING INTEREST IN THE ARTS AS WELL AS FREQUENT TRIPS TO MUSEUMS AND OBSERVATORIES. NOT ONLY DID JUDE FORM A LOVE FOR THE STARS AND WHAT WAS BEYOND, BUT SHE HAD BECOME FIXATED ON THE PAST AND DEATH. MUMMIES BEING ONE OF HER FAVORITE THINGS TO SEE DOTTED AROUND DIFFERENT MUSEUMS. CONSTANTLY BEGGING HER MOTHER TO TAKE HER TO SEE THE LATEST EXHIBITS AND SHOWS. HER LOVE FOR HISTORY AND SCIENCE HAD GROWN WITH HER MOTHER'S AID AND SUPPORT AS SHE ENCOURAGED HER TO EXPLORE HER INTERESTS AND DEVELOP THEM FURTHER. EVEN IF THAT HAD MEANT SLACKING IN OTHER AREAS. MATH WAS DEFINITELY NOT ONE OF HER STRONG SUITS IN SCHOOL. BUT IT WAS SAFE TO SAY THAT HER MOTHER WAS ONE OF HER BEST FRIENDS. ONE OF THE ONLY PEOPLE SHE HAD TRUSTED WITH EVERY ASPECT OF HER LIFE ESPECIALLY AFTER EXPERIENCING THE PAIN SOME PEOPLE CAN BRING INTO ONE'S LIFE.

THE MOMENT JUDE HAD TURNED SIXTEEN, HER LIFE HAD TAKEN A PLUMMET ONCE AGAIN. HER FATHER HAD TRACKED HER AND HER MOTHER DOWN. LEADING TO A MOMENT THAT WOULD SCAR HER FOREVER. HER FATHER HAD TAKEN HIS ANGER AND AGGRESSION OUT EVEN FURTHER. LOSING HER MOTHER TO HER FATHER'S HANDS. NOTHING HAD MADE HER FEEL MORE ALONE IN THE WORLD THAN LOSING SOMEONE SHE LOVED AND ADMIRED MORE THAN ANYTHING. HER STRUGGLES HAD ONLY JUSTF BEGUN AS SHE FOUND HERSELF ACTING OUT FROM THE PAIN SHE HAD NO ENDURED. TURNING TO ALCOHOL AND VARIOUS NIGHTS SPENT OUT PARTYING TO FORGET ABOUT THE PAIN THAT SURROUNDED HER. PUSHING IT DEEP INSIDE OF HERSELF SO SHE WOULDN'T HAVE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT ON A DAILY BASIS.

THE LOSS OF HER MOTHER HAD ONLY FUELED HER FASCINATION WITH DEATH AND THE BEYOND. LEADING HER TO SAN FRANCISCO AFTER FINISHING SCHOOL IN LOS ANGELES WITH A JOB OFFER AT THE UCSF AS A MORGUE TECHNICIAN.

WHILE HER JOB AND STUDIES WERE A GOOD WAY TO KEEP HER OCCUPIED, SHE STILL HAD A DESIRE TO SHOW UP AT RANDOM PARTIES. ANY WAY TO DROWN ANY MOMENT OF SILENCE AND TO PUSH AWAY THE ANXIETIES THAT COULD EASILY CREEP UP. HER FEARS OF HER FATHER SHOWING BACK UP IN HER LIFE AND THE FEAR OF HAVING TO ACTUALLY TRUST OTHER PEOPLE AGAIN WEREN'T SO EASILY MANAGED. SOMETHING ALCOHOL AND THE FACADE SHE HAD OFTEN PUT ON HELPED MASK AWAY. KEEPING HER SAFE FROM GETTING TOO CLOSE TO TOO MANY PEOPLE. SHE WAS A HARD SHELL TO CRACK BUT IT WASN'T FROM NOT WANTING TO WARM UP TO PEOPLE. THE FEAR ALONE KEPT HER ARMS OUT AND HER WELCOMING WARMTH CLOSED OFF FROM ANYONE WHO TRIED TO GET CLOSE. ONLY A FEW SELECT FEW WEASELLING THEIR WAY IN FROM TIME TO TIME. CATCHING HER IN VULNERABLE MOMENTS THAT SHE SOMETIMES JUST COULDN'T CONTROL.